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tagal ko ndi rin nagpost.. sira kc frnstr sa bhay and im pretty much uncomfortable everytime na id write my blog sa intrnet shop.. for some reason i feel na the person beside is reading my work.. hahaha

anyway, wat has happened to me l8ly.. Vice-Chair for Communications of NF sa org ko.. if ur wondering ano ang magiging work ko, dont ask me kc i dont know rin exactly hahaha it wasnt wat i had in mind.. i was actually aiming for something bigger.. or higher.. not that im dissappointed pero kc i hav no idea if im even qualified for the position i now hold.. or if i am qualified, which qualifications i have.. it is for service anyway.. service to the organization i have comoe to love.. UP JPIA so iL give it my best pa rin.. iL giv it all i have.. and who knows.. bka sa meetings ng national federation, something myt turn out

skul.. i dnt know.. hoenstly, been slacking off.. at the start ng semester i was all fired up.. as in i was getting almost perfect scores sa mga long exams ko.. i was inspired.. i had plenty motivations.. as it turns out.. they were too many.. and it was tough keeping them all together..

i lost my inspirations one at a time.. and wen i was down to one, i didnt have the energy nor the will to protect it.. dumating ung point na ung WiFi na lng ang pinapasok ko sa BA.. i dropped one subj so id hav more time dealing with other subjs.. advance naman ako sa curriculum eh..

i was so demotivated after dropping.. it felt lyk i gave up, surrendered.. then she came up to me and asked me if i wanted to talk about it.. we talked.. it was nice to have a friend lyk her.. she was one of those inspirations, who i thought i lost.. ndi pala.. she was there all along.. and she helped me through it.. she was great, she always is..

i was back on my feet.. and tried to finish strong sa final exams and papers.. i pray i did good.. especially sa majors ko

luvlyf.. pretty colorful pa rin.. and there are so many stories to tell that this aint goin to be enough.. currently, im still not committed to anyone hahaha i go out on dates from time to time,, but nothing serious and with no one in particular.. havent met the person eh.. ganun tlaga.. i dont want to lie to myself and say she is the one, or this person is the one.. i suppose gusto ko ma-feel un for myself.. na eveyone else on list is worth leaving dahil sa kanya.. marami naman "pwede" pero im not even bothering to move kc bka distractiong lng sa acads.. im still stick to my criterion na dpt study first relationship (or am i saying this dahil there is a possibility na my relatives are reading my blog.. hahaha.. joke lng)

work.. im still going to work sa Office of the University Registrar this summer.. it pays naman and it pays good actually pero its for the crs priority mainly, nothing more nothing less.. no monkey business and i definitely dont want to be involved anymore sa workm8.. mahirap din humanap ng person na pagwork, work.. at kapag personal, personal..

this sumester.. the lessons i learned practically came from painful experiences.. lessons are best learned the hard way, sabi nga nila.. first was wen sum1 i had feelings for hit me with personal side comments during a meeting.. we had an issue and we should have discussed it right away.. even before we had to deal with each other professionally.. it kept on like that.. wen we are supposed to talk on matters professionally, we’d find it very hard to approach each other.. minsan we wudnt talk at all.. it was tough, loving and hating her both at the same time.. i cudnt believe na she cud be so unprofessional.. lesson: when u leave things messy, they stay messy

the next lesson was during or BA 181 (Business Decision Making) group meeting.. we were doing our final case presentation.. i presented my business model and it was done manually.. not because i didnt hav a pc or i was competent enough to use the program, but because i thought that the program is not capable of creating the business model i had in mind.. my groupm8s rejected the idea of doing it manually.. some even laughed at me for doing it manually.. two days later a batchm8 who happened to be one of the smartest people around did his business model manually.. every group followed him and did theirs manually.. got hurt, bkt c darryl kpg nagmanual pinagtatawanan?? lesson: i need a good academic reputation

there.. the summary and highlight of my 2nd semester.. i dont lyk writing about my accomplishments anymore.. nor do i want to brag about them.. it’s late but i am finally beggining to understand what Marist tried to teach me and i hope i get to use that knowledge here in UP